Life Lesson

"What you give is what you get"

I always believe in those words. When you do something bad, Ms. Karma the Bitch will come and get you. But what if we've done our best to do good deeds but bad things keep happening? Shall we keep doing?
What if we get betrayed again and again by our loved ones (lover/friends/family)? Shall we stop trusting?
What if the people we love keep walking away? Shall we continue loving?

I've just learned another lesson in life that hopefully will make me wiser (in my own way). The incident was not bad enough to make me feel stupid about myself, but I guess it kinda hurt a bit and it's woken me up to be more selective in letting people to be close friends.

The first betrayal I got was when I was 5, my dad left our family broke. We had to move to the ghetto for few years and took care of the house when my mom was working. It wasn't bad at all, I'd got caring people around me who really took care of us. We protected each other, no matter how difficult the situation was. This experience taught me to respect people not because of their financial/social status, but for who they are and their hearts, and to be thankful for what I've got. If my dad didn't leave us, I'd probably have grown up as a spoiled little girl. Has this experience made me bitter and decided not to trust anyone? Well, in some ways, yes. I practically grew up by myself, I learned things from what happened around me, and most of them were really harsh. Betrayals, abusive mom's ex boyfriends, fights, wounds, scars, fears, tears. And I survived them all. So as you see now, I've been molded to be a tough, and sometimes harsh kid.
But I guess, we can't stop loving. Because we all want to be loved. We just need to get more and more selective each day. And about trust, well it's up to you. If you want to trust, be very careful. See it this way: don't give all your trust. Always leave a room for yourself. It is yourself that matters, the rest can follow.

Because at the end of the day, you only have yourself to rely on, but you're not alone :)